That is exactly how I am feeling right now. I am soo tired of having to ask for help. I get it, I can't do it all on my own. However, lately I feel as if I can't do ANYTHING on my own! I have to constantly ask for help from my friends. And to make matters worse I have nothing to offer them in return. I can't cook, bake, sew, or do anything helpful to anyone. Ugh!
I set out to block off my garden area from Panda today. So, not sure what I need to create the fence, I asked my friends J&J. I stopped over their place and checked out their set up. Okay, not so hard. Then, before I left J is going through the shed looking for extra fencing for me -- I know this is my issue, and he was just being kind (cuz that's how he is) but I felt bad taking it. I then went to the store to get the necessary posts. I then get home to try and put them in the ground...I have NO tools! So now once again I have to ask J&J to borrow tools.
I think what's really getting to me is the feeling of helplessness. I feel helpless, like I can't do anything on my own. Which is a switch from yesterday when I was all proud of myself for doing everything on my own. I know this moment of self pity will pass, but for now, I feel shitty, and angry with myself for not being able to do more on my own. Yes, yes, I know what you're thinking...there go those exceedingly high standards that you set for yourself. And yes, you're right.
I set out to block off my garden area from Panda today. So, not sure what I need to create the fence, I asked my friends J&J. I stopped over their place and checked out their set up. Okay, not so hard. Then, before I left J is going through the shed looking for extra fencing for me -- I know this is my issue, and he was just being kind (cuz that's how he is) but I felt bad taking it. I then went to the store to get the necessary posts. I then get home to try and put them in the ground...I have NO tools! So now once again I have to ask J&J to borrow tools.
I think what's really getting to me is the feeling of helplessness. I feel helpless, like I can't do anything on my own. Which is a switch from yesterday when I was all proud of myself for doing everything on my own. I know this moment of self pity will pass, but for now, I feel shitty, and angry with myself for not being able to do more on my own. Yes, yes, I know what you're thinking...there go those exceedingly high standards that you set for yourself. And yes, you're right.